Where's my portrait?

Dear artist, would you please paint a portrait of me
I need you to capture me with your oil
Elevate me with your brilliant perception
And the true colors of your soul's work

Can you show how pleasant I once was
I will give you everything you need
I want to see the joy I once experienced
The ones that now take seed under the lid

Please brush away my deepest flaws
Sweep me off on a trip in time
A place I will never be odd
And love would be forever mine

This might be a lot to ask
 I know that it is an awful lot to require
Of one who paints but lack...
And strives to retire

Imagine my elation
When you said you would try your best
I couldn't wait to see your rendition
As I put on my most pretty dress

I sat down for so long
Time flew, it seemed like ages

You said my portrait was completed
But...you handed me a blank page.